Year: 2017

Copyright by Shea Oakley

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Our healing may not come about in the way we think it should, but as God knows it must. Chronic pain, whether it is physical or emotional, cries out for relief and we are sure that the time for it to be relieved is now. We often also presume to know just how that healing should come about. Neither of these things is completely under our control. Any true healing we receive in this life must ultimately be sanctioned by God’s sovereign will. In the deepest sense we are not the final authors of our cure, He is.

It is true that we can sometimes lessen felt pain through our own devices, most often by the use of behaviors or chemicals of one kind or another. However this usually does not effect the deep and permanent relief we want (A psychiatrist I know once told me that tranquilizers, for example, are a cover for emotional pain, not a cure.) This is actually somewhat self-evident and certainly true for all the temporary pain relievers we use today. Whether it be alcohol, drugs, illicit sex or any other high-inducing substance or activity what we obtain is temporary relief and in the case of those catalysts which are clearly at variance with Scripture the near certainty of more pain in the end.

True healing is usually something that takes time. There is also often pain exclusive to the process itself and that process may require significant changes in our habits of mind or heart. Most of all, for the Christian, healing is a matter of prayer. This is especially true when it comes to emotional pain. Real healing requires real intimacy with the Healer and surrender of control over our lives is a foundational requirement for that intimacy to happen. Emotional pain is often connected to our resistance to humble ourselves in some way before God, such as when we refuse to forgive someone who hurt us.

Related to this truth is the fact that complete relief may never be ours on this side of Heaven. To call this reality an uncomfortable one for human beings to accept is an understatement, especially in a day and age when a pain-free existence has somehow come to be considered a “right”. This self-induced and culturally-prevalent delusion has been unknowingly spiritualized by some Christians who hold to the doctrine that if we have enough faith we can be completely free of any illness in this life, either physical or emotional.

When divinely-caused relief does come we are sometimes surprised by how it happens. God may use a person to confront us, or a circumstance to humble us, that we never would have suspected or desired. Beyond that how many of us have repented of some destructive attitude in our lives and then found out that, in the repenting, a “thorn in our side” we thought completely unrelated to the sin in question has been removed? As befits the mysterious, but benevolent, ways of our God, the nature of cause and effect in the healing process is sometimes quite different than what we expect it to be.

As in all areas of the Christian life the key is in trusting that God knows what He is doing even when we feel otherwise. He understands our longing for healing and it is in His nature to heal, but our relief must come on His terms, not our own. Accepting God’s wisdom over ours and patiently waiting for His touch will lead to the peace of mind and heart we need to endure our pain and, ultimately, to the relief for which we have trusted Him.

Copyright 2016 by Shea Oakley

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It is difficult for some of us to transition from the bad conscience that may have originally led us to seek redemption in Christ to a dependence on the conviction of the Holy Spirit as our new “moral compass.” One of the drawbacks of a now faulty self-condemnatory conscience masquerading as the reproving voice of God in a believer’s life is that conscience’s power to promote the condemnation of others. It is impossible to internally punish yourself at its prompting without finding yourself almost simultaneously internally punishing people in your life who have their own moral failings. Sometimes that “internal punishing” goes on to manifest itself in an external verbal censure of individuals who we have no right to judge, at least in the ultimate sense of judgment that is the prerogative of God alone.

Orthodox Christians usually have at least the intellectual understanding required to know that we have the right to judge wrong actions but not the people who are doing the acting. Very few of us are long in the faith before someone invariably shares with us the extra-biblical yet true statement that we are to “hate the sin but love the sinner” (in fact many of us knew this saying long before we came to Christ).This principle seems reasonable, in fact so reasonable that we may assume that it is an easy thing to practice in our daily lives and, for many, it is not difficult to do so. This is not, however, the case with those of us who have mistaken the voice of a punitive conscience for the genuine conviction of the Holy Spirit.

It is almost impossible, in fact, to harshly judge ourselves without also harshly judging our fellow human beings, whether they be believers or non-believers. Whether it is moral debauchery outside the Church or hypocrisy (unfortunately sometimes accompanied by debauchery) within we who have internalized a self-condemnatory spirit find it so very easy to self-righteously criticize all men.

It is this reality that I think explains many of the criticisms the world has for Biblical Christianity today. Too many who claim the name of Christ have a practical theology that stems from a fearful need to try to continue to atone for the many sins, perceived or real,  with which an overly strict conscience has saddled us. We have forgotten, or never truly understood, that “there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Rather than knowing a loving heavenly Father who corrects us in love for our own eternal good, we only know the voice of the accuser inside us (sometimes aided and abetted, I suspect, by the accuser outside, the Enemy of our souls). We accept the hard judgments of ourselves that accompany the moral accusations and then we unconsciously transfer those judgments to everyone around us.

Today there are enough Christians who do this to make many people outside the Faith want nothing to do with a belief system that we have distorted through accepting a moral compass driven by fear and efforts at self-atonement rather than by the saving grace of God. It is only in finally learning to accept that grace and repenting of ultimately self-atoning self-condemnation that will free us from both wrongly judging ourselves and, just as importantly, judging everyone else. This is a process that begins with the conscious owning of our previously unconscious slavery to our still fallen human conscience. It continues as we begin to reject the direction of that faulty conscience in favor of the gentle guidance of the Spirit. We are told in Scripture that it is the kindness of God that leads us towards repentance. When we come to know this is true for ourselves, we will be able to realize that it is true for everyone else as well and stop doing more spiritual harm than good.